"Life is all about finding out who you really are. First of all, know that you’re not alone. I don’t think there’s a person on this planet who has not, at one point or another, worn a mask to protect who they really are from a potentially difficult experience. The pressure of believing you’re the only one with this problem is half of what makes it seem so impossible to fix. The second step is figuring out what you’re so afraid of by revealing who you really are. It isn’t that you’re wearing a mask all the time, its that you’re putting it on in attempt to keep your therapist out. What you need to understand is that by letting that person in, they can get to the core of whatever else is bothering you. Just be straight up. It's hard, but once you break through that wall, the pressure you feel inside will lift, and you’ll probably cry out every single one of those tears ‘til all you can do is laugh to make up for it. That’s when you know you’ve done it. Be real, because a mask only fools people on the outside. Pretending to be someone you’re not takes a toll on the real you, and the real you is more important than anyone else."
Does anyone else sometimes wish they didn't force themselves to say "it's ok" when it's actually not ok, or put on a smile and say "pretty good" when someone asks how your day was when it was one of your worst days ever? I've come a long way from how I was in middle school, but when it comes to certain things I still hide behind an invisible mask. Just like how it was difficult for me tear down the invisible walls I built around myself and open up to people, I'm still trying to learn when to take off my "mask" sometimes...for my own good.
This reminds me of a something I read on tumblr once. Basically, a girl has 5 different personalities
1. How she acts in school
2. How she acts around friends
3. How she acts around her family
4. How she acts around the one she likes/loves
5. How she acts when alone
Sounds pretty true, at least for me. But I'm trying to change for the good, become a better person. Because just as Gaskarth said in the quote, wearing the mask is taxing, but once it's gone, I'm going to look back on it someday, laugh, and wonder why I was like that in the first place.